Here’s a great quote:

“If you’re searching for that one person that will change your life, take a look in the mirror.”

I recently did a coaching call focusing on self-worth and self-esteem after watching a TikTok body positive influencer talk about her “big girl embarrassing moments” going out with her friends.  Give it a listen and watch the YouTube video. I started the coaching call with MJB’s “Just Fine”, one of my all-time favorite songs.  I jam out on these coaching calls.  I’m just getting IME Community going and so decided to take the opportunity to record the call and put it in the member community as teens sign up and we co-create IME Community together. 

I was wondering what said TikToker was making it mean when she goes out with her friends and has all of these experiences.  Seems like she is making it mean she doesn’t fit in and she is constantly creating evidence for herself for that.  Now, her message resonates and she is totally slaying it on TikTok (unlike me) but how does it serve her and at what cost to her and her self-esteem when she gives power away to the external?

Also, are we creating more peripheralization for ourselves when we continue to look for evidence and believe thoughts that don’t serve us? 

Parents are the worst!  Parents are obsessed with self-esteem.  We want our teens, our kids to have high self-esteem because that’s the ticket to success in all areas of life.  Am I right? At least, that’s what we believe. We rarely challenge beliefs and ask if they are really true.  COVID has punctured a huge hole in so many bubbles.  What was important doesn’t even matter any more in many cases.  One glaring example, is how on TikTok, 18 year-old students in high school are posting their college acceptance results. Us parents and schools and society and social media have created this pressure and high stakes over a random and rigged (celebrity parents buying their kids’ acceptance) process.  It’s silly, but I fell for it.  I went through this with my oldest daughter, who’s now 20, and I really feel so embarrassed about it.  She’s cool and it was a hard process for her, but she made her own decisions and I couldn’t be prouder of her.  Don’t have scarcity for self-esteem.  Self-esteem doesn’t come from whether you get into your dream school or not.  That being said, if you got into your dream school, celebrate your amazing success!

Having high self-esteem is great.  It’s just that, in our culture, how we believe one gets self-esteem is kind of messed up.  Just like almost all things, we put all the pressure on the external and focus on achievements and success and how we rank and how we are perceived in the world.  It’s like, if we get to accomplish these achievements, or our teen does, because we are talking about teens, correct, we will then have high self esteem?  Sorry, I sometimes default to myself, especially when talking about self-esteem.  So, we chase the achievement, thinking and believing the accomplishment will make us have more self-esteem, and we (yes, I’m saying we, but I could say I with this when I look at how I have parented my teens) push and push our kids to achieve, and then we compare our teens to others, even our little kids on the soccer field, basketball court, in the musical, on the honor roll (remember the annoying bumper stickers that said, “Parent of an honor roll student”). How did we go from “Baby on Board” to “Parent of an honor roll student”?  It’s just an endless cycle we are white knuckling through.  How do we let it go and how do we know if we have high self-esteem and what builds self-esteem?

I recommend starting by taking the Rosenberg self-esteem scale (RSES).  It’s only 10 easy questions and is online.  It’s all self-discovery and learning.  Don’t be afraid to take the survey and don’t make the results mean anything about you.  Self-esteem is not fixed, so don’t have a scarcity mindset.  Self-esteem is fluid and dynamic and abundant beyond the measures of an online scale. So, start there with the RSES.

I’m an intense researcher.  JK.  This is straight out of Wikipedia for you:

The Rosenberg self-esteem scale (RSES), developed by the sociologist Morris Rosenberg,[1] is a self-esteem measure widely used in social-science research. It uses a scale of 0–30 where a score less than 15 may indicate a problematic low self esteem.[2]

Self-esteem is an individual’s subjective evaluation of their own worth. Self-esteem encompasses beliefs about oneself (for example, “I am unloved”, “I am worthy”) as well as emotional states, such as triumph, despair, pride, and shame.[1] Smith and Mackie (2007) defined it by saying “The self-concept is what we think about the self; self-esteem, is the positive or negative evaluations of the self, as in how we feel about it.”[2]

Self-esteem is an attractive psychological construct because it predicts certain outcomes, such as academic achievement,[3][4] happiness,[5] satisfaction in marriage and relationships,[6] and criminal behavior.[6] Self-esteem can apply to a specific attribute (for example, “I believe I am a good writer and I feel happy about that”) or globally (for example, “I believe I am a bad person, and I feel bad about myself in general”). Psychologists usually regard self-esteem as an enduring personality characteristic (trait self-esteem), though normal, short-term variations (state self-esteem) also exist. Synonyms or near-synonyms of self-esteem include many things: self-worth,[7] self-regard,[8] self-respect,[9][10] and self-integrity.

Experiences in a person’s life are a major source of how self-esteem develops.[5] In the early years of a child’s life, parents have a significant influence on self-esteem and can be considered the main source of positive and negative experiences a child will have.[32] Unconditional love from parents helps a child develop a stable sense of being cared for and respected. These feelings translate into later effects on self-esteem as the child grows older.[33] Students in elementary school who have high self-esteem tend to have authoritative parents who are caring, supportive adults who set clear standards for their child and allow them to voice their opinion in decision making.

Childhood experiences that contribute to healthy self-esteem include being listened to, being spoken to respectfully, receiving appropriate attention and affection and having accomplishments recognized and mistakes or failures acknowledged and accepted. Experiences that contribute to low self-esteem include being harshly criticized, being physically, sexually or emotionally abused, being ignored, ridiculed or teased or being expected to be “perfect” all the time.[37]

During school-aged years, academic achievement is a significant contributor to self-esteem development.[5] Consistently achieving success or consistently failing will have a strong effect on students’ individual self-esteem.[38] However, students can also experience low self- esteem while in school. For example, they may not have academic achievements, or they live in a troubled environment outside of school. Issues like the ones previously stated, can cause adolescents to doubt themselves. Social experiences are another important contributor to self-esteem. As children go through school, they begin to understand and recognize differences between themselves and their classmates. Using social comparisons, children assess whether they did better or worse than classmates in different activities. These comparisons play an important role in shaping the child’s self-esteem and influence the positive or negative feelings they have about themselves.[39][40] As children go through adolescence, peer influence becomes much more important. Adolescents make appraisals of themselves based on their relationships with close friends.[41] Successful relationships among friends are very important to the development of high self-esteem for children. Social acceptance brings about confidence and produces high self-esteem, whereas rejection from peers and loneliness brings about self-doubts and produces low self-esteem.[42]

Enough nerding out! Back to the blog!

One of my important messages is that self-esteem is both internal and external.  I coach and have done a lot of my podcasts and YouTube videos on self-love, self-compassion, self-judging, self-trust, self-kindness, most of which are internally focused.  But, self-esteem is both and it is up to us as individuals to create a balance for ourselves.  Relying on the external and others’ opinions of us, or what we believe is others’ opinion of us, which we don’t control, doesn’t help us with our self-esteem.  When we believe that someone else shouldn’t be doing something or saying something, we are arguing with reality.  You can argue with me until the end of time on this and I know how hard this is to get, but, whatever anyone says or does is what they should be saying or doing because they are saying and doing it.  It’s just reality.  When we think that they shouldn’t be saying or doing something, then we are “shoulding” what we don’t have power over and then inevitably will “should” ourselves into getting in their business to convince them they are wrong.  We are wasting our time. 

I’ve said this many times, but you are not put here to fix and solve problems in the world.  You can definitely show up and tend to your causes and have major impact and change the world over time.

You are here to live your amazing beautiful big magical life!  By the way, check out my beautiful book, “the magical everywhere”, especially if you have a younger or school-aged child in your life.  You will learn about Magical Gigi, one of my patients who died when she was eight years old from brain cancer.  Magical Gigi lived her big magic life.  She had a beautiful balance of internal and external self-esteem, just naturally.  We can all learn from her positive message to look for “the magical everywhere”.  Plus, a portion of all proceeds are contributed to child health non-profits.  Go to IME Books on the website to order yours!

What gets in the way of self-esteem?  Shame is an obstacle to self-esteem. Shame lives in the dark and is a feeling that comes up when we have a thought that we don’t fit in or we don’t belong.  We continue to believe thoughts are true that we are broken and need fixing.  Thoughts are just clouds going by, rainbows that come and go, a sentence in your mind.  We don’t have to believe them to be true. 

Dr. Brene’ Brown is the top researcher in shame.  I hope you will read her books and listen to her podcast, “Unlocking Us” and “Daring Greatly”.  They are on Spotify.  So is the IME Community podcast.  Hint. Hint. Please like and subscribe. 

Shame is a feeling or emotion.  A feeling or emotion is just a vibration in our body.  As humans on a human journey, we will experience all of the feelings and emotions.  Everyone experiences shame.  It feels like a nauseating twinge for me in my stomach.  It’s a really uncomfortable feeling for me, but I now know how to recognize it and allow it and process shame instead of reacting, avoiding, or resisting.  I respond to shame when it comes up and I don’t make it mean that, just because I experience and am feeling shame, that I’m shameful. I don’t make it mean anything about me.  Then it just comes and goes and there’s nothing going wrong.  If that’s the worst that can happen is a vibration in the body and some discomfort, but I know I always have my own back, and I fully trust myself not to make it mean anything about me, then it’s okay.  I feel shame, but I am not shameful. 

One of the most important skills I life coach teens on is to feel their emotions instead of reacting, avoiding and resisting.  What does shame feel like for you?  Can you describe it? 

Get started on your building self-esteem journey by taking the online survey and see where you are, then look more closely at the 10 questions on the RSES and do a little inquiry.  Ask yourself, do I have self-esteem balance?  How can I create internal and external balance when it comes to self-esteem?  What are some of the fixed and limited beliefs or thoughts that I have that are not building self-worth or self-esteem?  Do I want to use the term self-esteem or self-worth or self-regard or self-integrity?  Since shame is a self-esteem blocker, be curious and compassionate as you learn how shame feels in your body and allow shame and respond with kindness for yourself, instead of reacting, resisting or avoiding! 

Join IME member Community where I will coach you.  It takes intentionality and on purpose daily work to build self-esteem and you are self-worth it! Remember, I always have your back as you are figuring this out!

Self-love superpower,

Dr.Karla